Waiting for u

Never longed for anything like this

I feel empty still having everything

Dreaming day and night

without knowing a hint about u

Days and months are passing by

No tears to shed and my eyes are dry

U r beyond my control
I'm existing without soul

Just waiting to hold ur hands
and make u lie on my shoulders
Prayers are my only left out option
To thrash my real pain

 U r somewhere in this universe
No idea when U'll be mine 
Don't make me wait for a long time
Desperately waiting for u...;-(

My unborn baby!!!!

Dining in Hyatt

How about a dinner in five star hotel with your hubby?? Doesn't it sound great?

But it really wasn't for me... Actually it's his company's arrangement with his colleagues.I fussed initially to join him as i had a bad cold and not interested much. Sometimes i like to avoid people and want to be in my own world. I told reasons for not coming.. after two day's argument somehow he convinced me to come...

First, great confusion in what to wear.. at last decided to wear cotton kurta and a jean..

We reached there after an hour drive... Usually i roam out a lot before my marriage.. but now it's reduced a lot.. and nowadays i lost interest in going out..

To my surprise , i was literally feeling nervous to meet new people and mingle with them... I was like a school student appearing for public exam..


I self pitied myself for being like this as i like to speak with new people and mingles easily with my age group a year back... But situation and circumstances has really changed my real personality... It's a shock to me...


Let me continue with the dinner part...  It was my first time to enter a five star hotel... It was obviously Porsche but i was not able to enjoy that... my husband introduced me to his colleagues...  as usual a formal smile,, formal talk with his boss's wife...


It was a buffet dinner and they had all varieties in starters, soup, main course, chat items, desserts... I felt like an alien in a new world... i was uncomfortable with this kind of official get together.. I didn't enjoy the food as well.. Every thing was so formal and artificial... and i can't expect it to be informal for obvious reasons...


Still my heart didn't fit that place.. I was just trying to find out what's the meaning of the wall murals they had... Nobody was there to share my interest... and i also had some silly questions to ask but i didn't...
i was busy acting like a matured girl in front of others...I was just waiting to leave that place...


Good food, excellent atmosphere, hi-fie people, actually i should have enjoyed all these... but still I'm the same girl who belong to a small town...


I think when we grow in society we need some acting skills that is so called "ETIQUETTE"...


I prefer a dinner with my husband in a simple dhaba chatting silly things, being myself or eating in a road side hotel with my friends behaving local :-) 

Cooking - An art and meditation

My cooking interest started only a year back.. after my marriage. Like every girl I wanted to impress my husband  and my in-laws through my cooking...

Initially I knew only basic recipes for lunch and not too good in making breakfast..

My first recipe was Rava upma and it was a super-duper flop... but my in-laws really didn't complain anything about that... they are always encouraging...

I just started watching all cookery shows, lot of recipe books and got cooking tips from my family too...

And slowly I understood the small nuances in cooking.

When I started experimenting new recipes someone has to be there to give feedback... and my sister-in-law is always there to give an honest comment on my recipes...

As for me cooking is an art and you need real passion to learn it... I'll also call it a meditation as it needs complete attention and concentration... All your senses need to be in place to make a good recipe...

I really forget all my tension and worries for the two hours I cook...And if I'm too disturbed I would better stay away from kitchen....

Some of us take cooking for granted as there is no supervisor or no appraisal is going to be done on it... and obviously we feel we don't get any monetary benefit out of it...

But I find lot of improvement areas every day when i finish cooking... It's a big ocean and I would say I've just got a drop out of it...

Continuous updation of recipes is must as I myself get bored with the usual sambar and rasam...

I would post all the recipes which I knew and it may help the beginners in cooking...

Happy cooking:-)

Unanswered questions

Often asked questions in my heart…

Ended up always without an answer…

Where did I come from?

Why did I come here?

What am I doing?

Where I am heading towards?

What will I end up with?

How did I get these people around me?

Why do I think some of them close?

And want to go away from many…

Why do I laugh and cry?

Will I live without any worry?

What is my search in life for?

Knowledge… Money… Love… status…

When will I get the real peace?

Will I ever feel real contentment in life?

Do I have a real meaning for my life?

Will I find that before my life ends?

If I find will I serve my purpose?

Can someone answer these simple questions…

Hmm… wait… one more question…

WHO AM I????